Hard

Lately I've been having a tough time. I don't know what it is. Maybe its the fact that I'm stuck at home all day. Maybe its the thought that Nate is going to be gone a lot because Tax Season is heavily upon us. Maybe I'm pregnant. (JUST KIDDING! I'm not pregnant, I can assure you!) Who knows what it is, all I know is that sometimes it takes all of my will power to haul myself out of bed in the morning and do the same thing I did yesterday. I'm trying to have a good attitude. I see quotes on Pinterest that say, "If you want to be happy, be." Or, "Happiness is a choice." Well, whoever wrote/pinned those, I can assure you, didn't feel trapped in their own tiny apartment. I feel like I don't do ANYTHING. I almost bought a table and chair set today that badly needed a facelift, just to give me a chance to do something. (I 100% would have bought it, THIRTY BUCKS!, except they couldn't deliver it to me... total bummer...) Its annoying that I can't do anything, because I love to be crafty! I love scrapbooking, making bows, I want to bust out my sewing machine and sew the girls a skirt or something, but I feel like I have no room and it would just be more of a nightmare than anything. And it doesn't help that my neighbors are at it again, coming up to tell us to keep our kid quiet. UGH. I told Nate that once our lease is up we're either moving to a bigger apartment/townhouse or we're getting another car because I can't live another year like this. We've had one car our whole marriage, almost five years, and we've owned it for three of those years. It is truly a matter of my sanity. Thanks for letting me vent. Felt good.

P.S. Rachael and Whitney are now sharing a room, so at least I have a small part of my life that I can keep kid-free. The transition has been smoother than I thought it would be.