So Old.

I know a lot of you probably get sick of hearing me whine about how I don't have a car, but really, it sucks. Example: Every Wednesday a few of us get together at a park to chit chat while the kids play. Most of the time Rachael doesn't play, just sits by me begging for food, and quite honestly, bugs me. Today was no different, except after she had played for a few minutes (literally, three minutes...) she came up to me and said, "Mommy, go potty." So I handed Whitney off to a friend and went to take Rach to the bathroom only to see that she had already wet her pants. So what did I have to do? Pack everything up, get the girls back into the trailer and come home. All motivation to do the whole ordeal of packing up the trailer, unlocking and hauling the bike out, and then biking for 2+ miles to sit at some dumb park by myself has gone. Its not the biking that I have a problem with, as I've said. The weather has been BEAUTIFUL lately, and I really enjoy it. But if I had a vehicle I would have no problem going somewhere else later this afternoon. But now, we're stuck inside like its the middle of winter in Rexburg. I have zero motivation to do anything after something like this happens. It is so old.

Fone Foto Friday

I'm not going to promise that this Fone Foto Friday is going to be a weekly thing, but I took a LOT of adorable pictures with my phone this week (my real camera is in the car and I keep forgetting to get it out...). I hope you enjoy them, I have some pretty cute girls.

1. It was a cold, blustery day, so we decided to play with the sidewalk chalk. I would color something, and Rachael would "paint" it with a sponge brush after. It was fun, but I had to hose it off so the HOA wouldn't come after us. (Sometimes Irvine policies annoy me...)
2. We also made Valentines Day cookies. I had to improvise because I'm running low on cake mixes, but these turned out yummy AND cute!
3. Valentines Day hair. She freaked out when I took the heart out.
4 and 6. I put my clip in extension into Rachael's hair. SO CUTE! (She also freaked when I took these out...)
5. A few weeks ago was school picture day and this was the result. haha SO FUNNY! It is actually better than I thought. Rachael was going through a phase where she wasn't loving going to school, so at least we got some glimpse of a smile.
7. My mom sent a Valentines Day package for the girls with these huge suckers. (thanks mom? question mark intended) Rachael loved it, and Whitney loved the four sucks of one she got. (Side note: Nate's mom also sent a package full of delicious fudge. I gave Rachael a piece and she was ticked I wouldn't give her a whole 1/4 pound of fudge. Stinker.)
8. It was really warm one day, I'll even say hot, so Whitney donned her sun hat. Contrary to the picture's smile, she did not love it.
9. Just a smiley, happy kid with her four front teeth! (and a messy apartment...)

Hard

Lately I've been having a tough time. I don't know what it is. Maybe its the fact that I'm stuck at home all day. Maybe its the thought that Nate is going to be gone a lot because Tax Season is heavily upon us. Maybe I'm pregnant. (JUST KIDDING! I'm not pregnant, I can assure you!) Who knows what it is, all I know is that sometimes it takes all of my will power to haul myself out of bed in the morning and do the same thing I did yesterday. I'm trying to have a good attitude. I see quotes on Pinterest that say, "If you want to be happy, be." Or, "Happiness is a choice." Well, whoever wrote/pinned those, I can assure you, didn't feel trapped in their own tiny apartment. I feel like I don't do ANYTHING. I almost bought a table and chair set today that badly needed a facelift, just to give me a chance to do something. (I 100% would have bought it, THIRTY BUCKS!, except they couldn't deliver it to me... total bummer...) Its annoying that I can't do anything, because I love to be crafty! I love scrapbooking, making bows, I want to bust out my sewing machine and sew the girls a skirt or something, but I feel like I have no room and it would just be more of a nightmare than anything. And it doesn't help that my neighbors are at it again, coming up to tell us to keep our kid quiet. UGH. I told Nate that once our lease is up we're either moving to a bigger apartment/townhouse or we're getting another car because I can't live another year like this. We've had one car our whole marriage, almost five years, and we've owned it for three of those years. It is truly a matter of my sanity. Thanks for letting me vent. Felt good.

P.S. Rachael and Whitney are now sharing a room, so at least I have a small part of my life that I can keep kid-free. The transition has been smoother than I thought it would be.