My thoughts on exercise

If you know me well, we have probably had a conversation about how much I hate exercising. Unless its a dance or pilates class, I just cannot enjoy it. I want to, I just can't. When I was in elementary school, my two best friends played sports. Basketball and soccer. I actually have a vivid memory of being at Kristin's soccer game when we were in like 4th grade (I was always very supportive and went to a lot of their games), but they had to forefit because they didn't have enough players. They still wanted to play, so they asked me if I wanted to. I LITERALLY remember thinking "But these are new shoes." Yeah. But I did play, and I just did not enjoy it. (And that is why I don't even try, cuz its not fun for me, so I'm not good. Sorry Nate's family, I know you all love sports)
Nate and I have been thinking about going to Thailand this April, but if that doesn't work out, we'll still go on a cruise. I have a goal to get my legs looking good enough that I won't feel weird if I don't wear board shorts. Is that a weird goal? Nevertheless... it is my goal. I'm going to get a new suit if I get to that point. I would love to go to my old dance studio and take some classes, but it is just so expensive. I would also love a gym membership to take yoga/pilates classes, but that is also too expensive. I have taken a Zumba (exercise hip hop class) and a pilates class at the community center, but they were both a little weird and I didn't really enjoy them. Then tonight, my sister in law, Laura, asked me to go to her gym to take a spinning class. I got a free pass online and went with her. I could barely get up the stairs tonight. Ugh. I just can't find anything that I LOVE (besides my good friend Tani Bree's pilates class in Rexburg, love you Tani!!) and I have NEVER been able to understand a "runners high" or any form of exercising high. The spinning class teacher tonight was like "DON'T YOU JUST LOVE THIS??" and I wanted to yell at her "NO! YOU'RE CRAZY!" Really though, spinning wasn't TOO bad. It was hard, don't get me wrong, but I won't be going every morning like Laura. That to me, is insanity. Maybe a few times a month. I just need to find my place in the exercising world, or at least money to pay for my place.
Let's be honest, I've never really HAD to work out. I wish that would always be the case, but realistically, I want more children and we all know what THAT can do to your body. I want to find something I love NOW when I'm in good shape, not when I would rather scratch my eyes out than put a tank top and some leggings on and hit the gym. I need motivation, a goal, and right now, even a Thailand trip isn't doing it for me. And I've tried the at home videos, but I feel like I work harder in a group of people. What I would LIKE is a work out buddy who wants to do the same things as me. Let me know and I will definitely work something out. Ugh. I hate exercise. Maybe I'll just stick with the thigh master...